The Next Chapter

I have been slowly getting back into the swing of things again....feel I need to update things here on my blog...and begin blogging again for my own sanity. I am going through a divorce...it is messy, painful, and at times it is hard to keep my head above water. I have been a wife and stay at home mom for almost 10 years and now I am a single, (almost divorced) woman, who works full time, and is basically a single parent. I moved into an apartment last month and although I miss my home and yard, I am loving this place as well and the peace that I feel when I go home. Looking back in the short month I have had to do so I realize just how bad things had gotten. The evidence is apparant in the changes in my children in my presence now , as opposed to before when we all lived in the home together. They are much more lighthearted and free to express themselves. I am sad that I contributed to them feeling uncomfortable at home when their dad and I were around together.... There are so many things I need to get out...and it will be a process...and as I begin to go through my feelings and work through some of the emotions I am feeling I am going to need to blog.